just copied.

written by someone, read it somewhere.

What happened to us?

We were right there. We were so fucking close. You held my hand and told me words I didn’t think could be put into truthful sentences. You held me tight on the days I couldn’t take it, on the days I thought I wasn’t going to make it. You gave me meaning. Gave me purpose. You, you brought out the side of me I was afraid to show. You gave me all the reasons to stop crying, to smile, and count on tomorrow. But now.. Now I can’t even look at you without wanting to cry. I can’t even talk to you without wanting to yell and scream all the heartache you’re putting me through. I.. I can’t even remember a time when we’re not fighting. Arguing. Accusing. Now, it seems you are the reasons for my unhappiness.. The reason why I spend the nights crying all alone in my bed..

But I want to try. Baby believe me I do. I want to keep thinking and hoping for that better tomorrow. I want to believe you and me are going to be worth everything in the end. And yet, I’m stuck on that border line of giving up and attempting one last time. Clearly you’re frustrated. Clearly my heart is breaking. Clearly times changed for the both of us. The love we had is just no longer here.. It’s hard to try and bring those words to my heart, But I can’t take it anymore. I don’t know what to do. I feel so lost. What do you need me to do? Grab your hand? Pull you close? Kiss you? Get up, walk away? Drop everything? Give me a hint. Anything. Anything to just say, “I know right now doesn’t seem right, but stay with me, and we’ll get through this” Just something.

Please.. Just look at me.

kymastrid